A Trafficker in Climaxes

I am fully aware that my style is mostly lame, which makes being told that a pretty little shirt, a nice toy or something I find cool is “So Darliza” odd and at the same time, very, very pleasant . Is there really such a thing as “Very Darliza”? I do not even know my place in the world or what I really like or what I really want or how I wanna look so it’s surprising to me that some people associate me with a certain look, a certain approach or a certain feel.

It’s like trademark, one which I have (apparently) subconsciously cultivated over the years. Okay.

High Fidelity

On a slightly related note, let me talk to you about tastes. Tastes matter and I mostly judge people (inaccurately, sometimes) based on the things they like. I find people who have good tastes and/or have tastes like mine to be more attractive than those who veer too far away from the things I enjoy doing. People who read, who like good movies, who listen to music  and who like science and technology are infinitely more interesting to me compared to those  who listen to mostly Lady Gaga and only watch no-brainer, blockbuster movies.

Funnily enough, I have a lot of friends that I have been friends for years and I don’t really share the same interests with. They like sports and enjoy pop songs and (I’m presuming) do not even know a lot of bands that I like. But don’t get me wrong, they are great people and I love them to death and I’m lucky to have met them on different circumstances.

However, if you are an acquaintance and I find out that you paid at least $3 to watch a really lame movie such as Twilight Eclipse on its opening weekend then ended up really liking it, we don’t have much chance of being friends. I would understand watching the first movie (I saw it in the theaters too. It’s a dark secret I keep.), but I was too horrified about how everything about it sucked to even talk about how I paid to watch it. It was so bad.

I know that all this talk is lengthy and choppy and reeks too much of superiority complex but this really isn’t a post about that. I’m just being honest. I know that in tastes and preferences, there should be no debate but you can’t really expect to be friends with someone who hates the things you like.

What do you want me to do? LEAVE? Then they’ll keep being wrong!

This xkcd comic is an accurate summary of my life; or the part of it that I spend on the internet anyway (which is A LOT). Yes, I am extremely condescending online and I am not very fond of people whom I have major differences with. I tend to impose my thoughts and opinions on forums but I’m learning to just give up on it and move on, because yknow, it gets boring after some time. Also, I get pleasure in pissing others to the point of them losing their control, slipping into infractions and getting banned. I have tried it and it is very sweet indeed.

The Holy Week is quiet and slow and it gave me a chance to inspect my life.

I confuse myself. :(

I don’t seem to fit into any stereotype which might be cool but really I do, and not just one but A LOT. I feel like I’m too cool to be a geek and I’m too geeky to be cool. An extrovert who grew up to be so introverted to the point of distress. It’s funny how I was “awarded” the Gift of Gab in high school only to end up to losing the ability to chat several years later (okay, I chat but not offline¹).

I am a walking contradiction. :(

I do not know my niche.

Which geek are you? Click photo.

I know that I geek over some things but I am not a geek on any field. I like comics but I’m not into mainstream Marvel/DC superheroes. I like movies, but I like them all. I download a lot and watch too little of it. I like TV shows but it’s agonizing to watch them endlessly for an entire day.  My attention span cannot stand it. I like books and my interest in them might be the one thing that can win me an otaku spot but I haven’t been reading enough books lately. I like Physics but I have lost confidence in Math to actually excel in it. I was tormented with too much Math before I could learn to like it. Numbers are boring, applications of it and theorizing over the universe on the other hand, is übercool. Also, I like music but I fail at playing any instruments. I admit though that it is more of a failure in trying than anything else. Trying to learn an instrument is hard when you are surrounded with insanely talented people. I love programming and coding but I don’t have the grades to show for it. Also, I can be too shy.

I do not fit in. :( ²

¹ Yes, that’s a Sheldon Cooper quote for you.
² :P I am constipated. lol

P.S. I can’t believe I forgot to link the comic to xkcd.